I now feel so secure to have reserved a place for our communicaiton. Now that there is so much physical distance between us, it becomes difficult to share every little thing that I want to. I was just thinking over this, and I realised that there are so many things that I could have told you, had we met. The internet and the ph are superficial, and i miss being with you. I miss those trips to DC, the Barista visits, the McD discussions...I miss bugging you to eat south indian food...I miss Parul, Pratibha and Samitha asking me to buy new sandals/earings/salwar suits. I miss having you ppl to console me when I was sad. I just miss everything.
I wonder if I ever told you all how much you mean to me. When you were around me, when I could touch you, call you, meet you...I probably had started taking you for granted. Sitting here, miles away in Tucson, I realise that I could have used those available moments for more discussions on life, and could have nurtured our friendship even further. I feel sad that I was over-reacting during the project days...and I feel sad to not have met samitha and pratibha before coming here.

This place is so so lonely, I miss all the fun. I want that security again. I want to run down to McDs for a nice conversation, I want to go to Satyam and watch a movie, I want to amble around the campus and sit in the lovers lane, i want to play hollywood-bollywood in the tutorials, I want to gather around the table and eat matar paneer and aloo chips, I want to play tic-tac-toe in the middle of the class, I want to sing "deewana hua baadal" and "piyu bole", I want to have coffee and maggi and rajma chawal and sambhar-wada in the canteen, I want to tease you and mota...I really really want to be back home :(

I don't know how to thank you for just being there for me, for having loved me despite all my limitations, for having encourgaed me and for all the support and advices and care. Thank you for the stole that you gave me in 2005, I have got it here in Tucson. Adi, I happen to remember the home-made chocolate that you made for my birthday. There has been no gift as sweet as that in my entire life.

Lots and lots and lots of love...
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